OUTRO
2 years of work, we did put our hearts into it. Enjoy watching!
(Creation of the discord server where we worked together with CN)
MY GOD, GUYS, these last few years have been tough... but it’s over! Finally done...
I have to admit, as I’m writing this letter, I can’t really comprehend the journey that’s been completed. Without CN, I would have never made it, so the first thing I would ask of you is to absolutely follow this guy closely, because he has real talent and is a hard worker.
I can’t describe how lucky I feel to have worked with him, even though I know I’ve been a burden for a long time. This project reminded me of my instability.
What I’ve realized is that having an ideal is a curse. Why? Because for all those who once had an empty life, without any goals, it brings you back to a reality that, if you don’t manage yourself, you won’t be able to achieve your goal. And so, it confronts you with your addiction problems and unstable behavior.
(An exemple of a scene that asn't been done)
I’ve fought with myself for two years to move forward with this project. I literally did my best, and I’m not disappointed in myself, but I think I could have done more. More out of respect, more by managing my time better, more by believing in myself more. And I’m the only one responsible for the work done, the only one who was weak at certain times.
Anyway, all of this to say that doing a project that seems "ideal" or even "perfect" to us, firstly, doesn’t exist without the right resources and time, and secondly, it’s a long trap that leads us down a hard and tiring path.
Of course, CN has been my teammate for two years, but many other people have contributed to the project, whether from afar or up close!
TOXIC 180: who made the mask sprites that give the characters their natural charisma, but also for being such a great teammate, always pleasant and kind.
(By Toxic180)
Aetic / Ratprime / Eastly: true gunsmiths, not only for the firearm sprites but also for certain military outfits.
(MADE BY AETIC)
Styla / Dziadek / Tarraka / Tarkade: who provided additional help with the backgrounds while no one else was available.
Buran: who enabled us to work in 3D.
But I also want to thank the people who supported me in real life, like my girlfriend, her family, and my loved ones.
Overpxund: for creating an entire track for the project and welcoming me to his place when I needed it. (follow this dude)
BOTFast / Akito: my two favorite brothers, who have been following me for several years now.
Kenami: for being my teacher from the very beginning and for releasing that video that started it all.
Axel/Atlas: for being my creative brother, who kept going where I gave up!
Raphael: for also being my creative brother and who kept going where I no longer had the courage to move forward.
WHAT'S NEXT?!
Well, I have to admit that in recent months, I haven’t done much apart from the project. And now, with the release, I’d love to do more and continue investing in the community, but also in animation. However, I fear that life itself may not allow me to.
I’ve started studying to become a nursing assistant, with the goal of becoming a nurse, and these are difficult studies with a lot of content.
When I was younger, I wouldn’t have paid attention and probably would’ve gone to animate or play instead of doing my homework, but I’ve grown up, and now I have responsibilities. My parents are getting older, and I realize they won’t always be there for me, and that sooner or later, I’ll have to fend for myself.
And yes, it’s true, I’ve been animating for six years now, and I feel like I’ve developed an obsessive disorder. My parents don’t understand how I’ve been able to do it for so long, and honestly, neither do I ! It’s not that I don’t enjoy it quite the contrary but I need a change. I need something else in my life, new experiences, and new adventures.
That doesn’t mean I’ll never animate again, but I don’t have as much time anymore, and it’s a lifestyle that no longer suits me. Sitting in a chair all day makes me depressed, lol.
So, what to expect in the future? I don’t know. As I said earlier, I’m a victim of my own instability. Sometimes, I can work for hours, and other times, I do nothing for months. So, we’ll see where this leads.
One thing is for sure: I’ll be very committed to my studies for the next chapter of my life.
Well, this letter is done
I don’t know what else to say except a big thank you.
Don’t hesitate to ask questions, I’ll be happy to answer them!
densmith
Hello
You maybe remember me, but here's the thing: I share your worldview regarding the fact that you literally fight with yourself to finish the project. That after studying your head is splitting and you force yourself to do animation or drawing because you know for yourself, that you are worth more than just being white collar, I don’t know if it sounds idealistic, naive or not. But I think it is important to have this kind of freedom in terms of creativity and it also develops discipline. Yet there's a line when it comes from discipline to obsession, I've been animating for 7 years now and maybe I answered why am I doing this - "This is one of the few things I can do really well and it pays off by validation and praise from others". But in other hand I understand that if I want a possibility of making animations for a living, I have to change format of animations so I would be happier person as a whole. Don't listen to people who say "art world sucks" and don't envy those who make ugh...You know, "that" type of animation and have a large following , we both know you're better than that. There is art that is easily perceived by the majority, and there is the opposite. You and I are working and overcoming, pushing boundries now, so that it will be easier later and still become who we want and not being someone who would make a benefits from us. I wish you good luck on your path, it will not be easy but I believe it's still worth it, who knows what waits for us next ?
Sincerely
Den Smith
Hyper-Focus
Glad I'm not alone in this! And yes, madness is one of the few things I know how to do, so it's true that over the years I've found comfort in the fact that, one way or another, it's my area of expertise, and I could only 'push the boundaries,' as you said. I think that played a big role in why I kept animating.